I've been spending today in physical awareness

of my body hurts
in mental awareness 

of past longings and

secret memories i've unearthed

from the 

dusty box

in my back alley

labeled 

"thou shall not want"

I've been swimming in the pool
the locks where tight, but I slithered past still.

My heart
is occupied
my headbrain
is fuzz

You said you wanted to wait for the perfect time
and i think
time has no place in a place like this

Post operative haze,

I travel in past time regression 

to a place once been

but never felt.

The air in it was like Popsicles

I couldn't see three feet in back of my face

introduce:

night terror dream space

notches on arm posts

rigid fist clench dig deep nail gouges gauge time

panicky pace steps

wander in disillusioned variables of

I- can't sleep

II- can't calm

mind blazing traits of unconscious banter tapes

Mix tape One, Side A:

~some song about the weather

~long period of indiscernible brain refuse

~Body Beautiful - Salt N Pepa

~half a speech on nuclear fission

Mix tape One, Side B:

~unintentionally left full

black dogs catch underfoot

shadows besides, muscles twitch

some mitigated circumstance

overseen by god and the milkman

if it wasn't for free refills

I'd strangle myself.

.

Hey You.

Ugly motivate-R
easy dissociate-R
chronic masturbate-R

That pose you hold
is sewn in your clothes
with strings of bones
and applesauce

Starch Spray IRONed Stiff
by demons taunting with tokes
of
ENDlessly
PERpetuating
HOPscotch
MotionReality.

It was a tattle tall tale
Irritable Vowel Syndrom
'cause "RAIAIAI" doesn't score
in scrabble.
Mind blur dazzles from
carpet floor slumber parties
and working steam wands into
hand blisters.
Low on the dough,
but not on the dole.
breath
easy
butter buns.

puppy dog heart tug crush pup
cuddle bugs in attic wires
Singed Featherduster.
Sorted KnickKnacks.
Solidified Protagonist.

Seeking:
suckerfish pronouns
lip locked engine reved
speed champ
cosmonaut.

Protoplastic Deathmatch Hatemonger
Turn to local 12, let ye be rested.