IT finds me.

IT finds me and plucks me up,
dropping into a void.
A void of my own creation.
A void devoid of emotion, of feeling.
A place to go.
A place to go to be alone,
alone with myself
to look at myself
chew up and digest myself
punch, beat, console myself
disgust myself
lust after myself
define my-self
label my--self
confuse my---self
get to the bottom of
my----self
Until I am satisfied
and IT loses track
of me and
my--------self