I've been spending today in physical awareness

of my body hurts
in mental awareness 

of past longings and

secret memories i've unearthed

from the 

dusty box

in my back alley

labeled 

"thou shall not want"

I've been swimming in the pool
the locks where tight, but I slithered past still.

My heart
is occupied
my headbrain
is fuzz

You said you wanted to wait for the perfect time
and i think
time has no place in a place like this